Easter Egg and Pie N Mash...Mmm!

I hope you all had a lovely Easter. "?" came in for an hour this morning, then "L" came by to drop "ST" off as he did'nt go to visit "A" Sunday, because he was'nt on the VO and he is classed as an adult to visit that prison. I did'nt go after all, just as well really as i did'nt have the proper ID, they wanted ID with photos on and i hav'nt got anything, i did'nt bother getting my bus pass, bacause i go everywhere by car. If i had gone i would have had to wait outside.

 

"ST" stayed with me while "L" and "J" went to visit him. "ST" and i had a pleasant day together. I made pie and mash with parsley liquor for our dinner, thats what "ST" wanted for dinner Mmm! that picture is making me hungry and later he ate his Easter Egg i bought him, we both watched TV most of the day untill "L" and "J" returned later.

 

"L" and "J" returned around 5:30pm, "? returned around the same time for an hour. "L" told us the security is much tougher than Pentonville where "A" was before. she said they looked in her mouth, ears, hair and normal searched her and she had remove her coat and leave it outside and she could only take in change for the vending machine in the visiting room. "L" said she was worried incase she got lost on the way there, but she said she found the place easier than she thought she would..."L" said, "A" is ok!

"SH" phoned last night from her friends house in Maldon, Essex. She said shes going to cancel AOL when she reurns home today and going over to sky TV and broadband. Sky have got a good deal going at the moment, so shes going to get that. I was going to go back to AOL myself, but "SH" said shes having so much trouble with them and told me not too! After all i'm not getting any probs with sky, so why rock the boat. I've only had a diagnostic problem and had to reset my modem which i corrected myself. And normal probs while sky was altering their email section awhile back now, which was'nt too bad at the time. And i enabled pop3 on my email section. Other than that all is ok!

"?" came by this morning for an hour then left and will be returning later. Oh yeah! "?" got most of the tiles done around my kitchen work-top on Saturday. He said he will do the rest after Easter. Once its all done i will take a photo of it. I can't believe i've got a kitchen at long last!

Well, thats all for now, so best wishes to one and all and i hope you all have a great week ahead of you...Be Happy!

 

Easter Weekend...

HAPPY EASTER everyone...Today, Good Friday is quite. I've got a few chores done this morning. I could'nt do much in the way of chores at all last week due to  "?" finishing painting the kitchen walls, then the the man from the council came to tile around my sink. Then yesterday, "?" and i went to Topps Tiles to buy some tiles to match the council ones to put along the back of the work-top which "?" will do during next week sometime or when hes feeling up to it, after all theres no rush.

"?" was here this morning for half hour then left, he was'nt feeling too good in himself today, i think he may have over done it while painting my kitchen. He seems to be in a rushing,anxious mode which is one of the bipola symptoms. I think thats why he kept himself busy painting my kitchen and to keep his mind off the latest events concerning "A"

"A" rang Wednesday morning, he said he has been moved to Newmarket early that morning and he has sent out a VO ( visiting order ) to "L" for "L" the kids,  "?" and myself to visit Easter Sunday. One part of me wants to go to see him because hes my son, but the other half of me thinks about all the things hes done wrong over the years and i feel i would be a hypocrite if i did go, because i always told him that if he ever goes to prison again, he goes on his own and with no help from us what so ever. Last time we were going to visit him once a week each week for 4 years, he came out 10 years ago this march and "L" was visiting twice a week. Going inside the prison made me feel like dirt to be associated with the filth there and its degrading being searched going in and out... I just don't know what i will do yet. Deep down i love him, but i hate what he stands for and wild for him getting in trouble again, my feelings are so mixed up. "?" has had some strong words with me yesterday for even thinking of going to visit him. I just don't know yet! If he was'nt my son, i would'nt give him the time of day which he already knows.

My brother-in-law "H" came by yesterday just as we got back from Topps Tiles. "H" stayed for dinner and chatted all day with "?" they don't see that much of each other now, "H" used to drop by weekly at one point, but things change...

I'm listening to musicbox with my earphones at the moment with all sixties and seventies records that i've put together.

"SH" has gone to her friends in Maldon, Essex for the Easter Hols, i will give "Z" her Easter Egg when they return after the hols. "L" will be here in the morning (Saturday) to drop off "ST" and "J" so they can speak to "A" when he rings. I will give "ST" and "J" their Easter Eggs tomorrow.

Well, thats all my news for now...I hope you all have a great Easter weekend...Best wishes to one and all.

            

Time goes by...

with thanx to Roxy for these sweet graphics here and below...

Easter is almost upon us. Its seems like we've just got over christmas, my goodness where has the time gone?

Last week "?" painted my kitchen for me, it will have to be painted again as it needs a second coat. The colour is oatmeal, its a Wilkinsons mat paint, its got a sickly smell to it. "?" could only do some painting for a couple of hours at a time, because he feels tired and fatigued when he does any work. I did'nt do much, only tided-up any mess that was made and made tea ( i'm useless ) My kitchen is shapeing-up now and i am waiting for the council to come and tile around my sink.

"A" has phoned most days. He has had a few rows while in prison, i don't know why he can't keep his head down and his mouth shut for once. He said, he might be home this Thursday on tag. All i know is everyone concerned has felt much more at ease while he has been away including myself and "?" and "L" seems much happier and more at ease in herself too...I think that says it all.

After "?" and i got back from the shops "L" dropped off "ST" and "J" here yesterday at 9am so as "A" could speak to "J" on the phone. "L" said she don't want to talk to him so she left and returned around 11am to pick "J" up. I don't blame her in the least for not wanting to talk to him, shes put up with so much over the years. As "L" says, Hes got another mug to take her place ( her words) so he can get on with it. What ever happens, my granchildren come first all the time, thats the way "?" and i think about the situation.

My daughter "SH" brought "Z" round at 4pm on Saturday to stay over untill Sunday as "SH" is was going out. "ST" and "Z" made a fruit cocktail...lol. ( experiment as "ST" calls it ) to go with their jelly and ice-cream later. "?" left around 5pm and "L" returned around 7pm ( Saturday ) to pick "ST" up. Then "Z" and i settled to watch TV for the evening. Today Sunday, "Z" and i  had a good day together. After dinner "Z" and i were drawing each other and playing cards. "SH" just phoned, she said, shes got the seven drawfs running around her head banging away...lol. that will teach her to drink too much. When "?" returns later ( i hope it won't be too late, he said he would be a bit late coming back this evening..."Z" has got school in the morning ) we will take "Z" home.

I've stopped taking my Anti-depressants ( they are used as a strong pain killer ) to help with the pains i get from chiari. The reason i stopped them was due to what was in the papers and on the news recently. But, since stopping them, my pains have returned and my stuttering is bad, so i'm wondering is it true what the news people are saying??? or are my meds the real ones???

Well, thats all y news for now. I wish you all a Happy Easter and i hope you all have a good week ahead of you. Best Wishes and God Bless!

 

 

 

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MIXED FEELINGS AND KITCHEN SINK...

with thanx to missie for this lovely graphic...

Hello everyone...Thank-you for your kind comments, it is much appreciated. I hope your all keeping well

"A" phoned yesterday morning, he sounded depressed and wanted to speak to "?" when "?" came off the phone he sat with his head in his hands for a while then turned to me and said, I've got to get a DNA test done. Do you know what, he can't be mine he said ( that don't say much for me aye..lol  Oh dear! ) i burst into fits of laughter and said, i think i need to get one too! God knows what "A" had said to him, it must have been something stupid or outrageous knowing him. "L" and the kids went to visit "A" last Friday. Today i wrote him a letter, i've still got mixed feelings about him and the way he conducts his life, but he is his own man and he has to take the consequences for his own actions. I don't like what he stands for and i really do worry about him deep down...mixed feelings! What mother would'nt care? but saying that, i must'nt show weakness or he will walk all over me...I do care!

The council came yesterday to put in my new kitchen sink. It was supposed to be done last month, but the council had cancelled it and i had to complain and it was put back on order. Well, it was fixed in and what a shambles it is too! All the back of it has been smashed instead of sawn so as to fit around the waste pipe and the sink-top don't sit on the base and theres leaks around the pipe joints. And this took them 4 hours to do.  No wonder this country's in a state with workmen like that and they get paid for that too! And they're supposed to have city and guilds to work for the council "?" managed to stop the leaks and today he filled in the gaps the men had left at the side of my sink and the hole in the wall where the outlet goes as you could see daylight through it. "?" will be fixing the other leak tomorrow as he needs to get a flang. Someone will be round to tile around the sink, i'm wonder whether to let them do that or not, because last time the council done that they made a mess there too and "?" had to get more tiles to put it right.

"?" and i have been keeping busy occupying ourselves. I've been a bit stressed, but i'm coping better now. "?" gets stressed out a lot more than i do and finds it hard to cope at times and he can't sit down for one minute esspecially with whats going on with "A" at the moment.

"Z" phoned on Monday. She was all chuffed with herself because she had been picked to sing in the school chior, we chatted for a while before "SH" came on the phone and we had a lengthy chat. She said her and "Z" are going to "ASH" over the Easter Holidays at Maldon in Essex. I hope the weather is ok for them so they can spend some time at the beach which is'nt too far from where "ASH" lives.

Well, i hav'nt got anymore to say, so i will leave it here and hope the rest of the week is good for you and your all in good health and best wishes to you all...

 

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TEARS AND HEARTACHE...

Its been almost a month since i last wrote in my journal or hardly even been online, even although i have left my computer on during the day at times. The reason for this is "?" and I have had some traumatic experiences concerning our son "A" and the the worst is yet to come in April and although we did know this would happen at some point soon. I know all this sounds confusing, but i feel that i can't write about whats actually happened in my journal...Kathy, (ASTORIASAND) i have mentioned the situation to you a while ago now and it has happened! I've tried to put pen to paper several times, but i feel i can't write him yet and what is there to say??? its all been said time and time again!

The last couple of weeks "?" and I have been trying to find things to do so as to keep ourselves busy and our mind on other things as it is telling on us both.

I got a lovely Mothers Day card from my daughter "SH and one from "Z" for Nan which is so sweet. "Z" will be staying with me on the 15th March as "SH" is going out somewhere with her new man friend, i can hardly call him her boyfriend as hes 42 years of age. I've met him once and he seems ok and hes tall ( then again, anyone is taller than me as i'm only 4ft 11inches ...lol. )

This morning my son "A" phoned to say Happy Mothers Day. It was nice to hear from him and my heart felt enlightened for a while, but, its left me with mixed feelings, atthe moment i'm feeling tearful while writting this.

This afternoon around 3.30pm, "L" came by to drop off a Mothers Day card from "A" which little "J" wrote in it love from  "A", "L", "ST" and "J" bless her heart! This made me feel more tearful...Oh dear...what am i like aye!

Well, i've got a couple of more chores to do before "?" returns around 5.30pm, i might come back online when he leaves later...

I hope you have all been keeping well, i must get round to visiting your journals soon...Bye for now and God Bless!