TEARS AND HEARTACHE...

Its been almost a month since i last wrote in my journal or hardly even been online, even although i have left my computer on during the day at times. The reason for this is "?" and I have had some traumatic experiences concerning our son "A" and the the worst is yet to come in April and although we did know this would happen at some point soon. I know all this sounds confusing, but i feel that i can't write about whats actually happened in my journal...Kathy, (ASTORIASAND) i have mentioned the situation to you a while ago now and it has happened! I've tried to put pen to paper several times, but i feel i can't write him yet and what is there to say??? its all been said time and time again!

The last couple of weeks "?" and I have been trying to find things to do so as to keep ourselves busy and our mind on other things as it is telling on us both.

I got a lovely Mothers Day card from my daughter "SH and one from "Z" for Nan which is so sweet. "Z" will be staying with me on the 15th March as "SH" is going out somewhere with her new man friend, i can hardly call him her boyfriend as hes 42 years of age. I've met him once and he seems ok and hes tall ( then again, anyone is taller than me as i'm only 4ft 11inches ...lol. )

This morning my son "A" phoned to say Happy Mothers Day. It was nice to hear from him and my heart felt enlightened for a while, but, its left me with mixed feelings, atthe moment i'm feeling tearful while writting this.

This afternoon around 3.30pm, "L" came by to drop off a Mothers Day card from "A" which little "J" wrote in it love from  "A", "L", "ST" and "J" bless her heart! This made me feel more tearful...Oh dear...what am i like aye!

Well, i've got a couple of more chores to do before "?" returns around 5.30pm, i might come back online when he leaves later...

I hope you have all been keeping well, i must get round to visiting your journals soon...Bye for now and God Bless!